Blast Session II

Okay, so the last itme i put people on blast it was people that have no positve affect on my life... So why give the negative a recongition without recognizing the positive.

First let me take off on Tiffany Danielle Few. This is my best friend. When i tell you that i feel so very blessed to have her apart of my life.... I am truly blessed. She has been a wonderful person. We have been friends since the 7th grade. I remember like it was yesterday. I mean we hung tough in our middle school Fairport days. As we got older and went to different high schools we took two totally different paths. I am not going to go into too many details but she is great. She listens, she gives me good advice and she tells me like it is ( even when i am just not tryna hear it). I know she has to be sick and tired of all of my relationship drama. I know she worries about me a lot because she tells me all the time. Can i be honest..... she is more of everything than any of my sisters could have and will ever be. This young lady is a prime example of loyalty, friendship, dedication, love, honesty and respect. When someone ask about my frineds I always say that i have one true friend..one best friend.....Tiffany. Through it all she has always been there she has never left my side.

Kierra.... Kierra is my ex Storm's cousin.......as much as me and her cousin have been through and you know how the family gets they usually fall out with the girlfriends. But no not her......she cool. What do i always tell her that she my bitch. She even tells me sometimes what i need to hear but i dnt be tryna hear it either though. I call her alot of times when i am upset, and we kicks it hard too.
Okay, here is another blast to Dj Durl. I consider him to be a good friend why when we dont really talk that much at all. matter fact he usually only text me because he said thats the only way we can have a prolonged conversation. I consider him to be a friend because he forgave me. I admire him for that and i dont think he knows how much of an influence he has on my life now. I dont think he will ever know. He is really a genuine person.....and like my friend lance is also is a good catch..too bad i didnt have the sense god gave me to keep him....but i have already blogged about that so time to move on.... And u know what else i told him that i was thinkin about moving to the co and he said that i would always have a place to stay. I dont know if he really meant that or not but the thought was nice if anything.


I konw this is going to sound strange a positive blast to all the negative people I named before. How? because the negative impact that they have had on my life has made me want to change all that into positive. They are my motivation to want to do better, even though i am my own motivation. When I dont feel like doing some thing positive I think about them and it gives me even more will power and determination to do better......... I never thought I would say this but I LOVE MY HATERS.

Finally, Erin Michelle Gist.
I have to put myself on blast. Thank you so much for finally standing up for me. About time you have started to take pride and stand up for what you believe. I am putiing you on blast because you have had to make some real hard decisions lately, and I am so proud that you have not given up on me. I am so glad that you have been able to make some conscious decisions and that you are starting to shape and plan for our future. You are now starting to make positive changes because girl......before you were your own down fall. You didnt believe in yourself enough and now i see your confidence and self esteem on the rise. You are beginnig to act and think of a woman with diginity and self worth. You are starting to make more wiser decisions and not just decisions for the moment being. You still need to work on your anger and your temper but i commend you for acknowledging that there is a problem there and you are taking steps to try and solve that. So, I put you on blast for this reason and reason only you are FINALLY figuring out who you are and not what others think you are or what they want you to be.

havent wriiten in awhile....changes

i havent written a blog in awhile so i just got off of work from 3rd and i still cant sleep after being up all night.
So here goes........ i have finally taken the last step i needed to let go of the thing that has been causing me so much hurt. I am not going to lie but be honest. I think letting go caused more hurt than the actual part of being there. But staying there only made me realize that i couldnt love through my hurt. So now i know that the hurt i feel now will eventually make me stronger as an individual. I see things for what they really are now. Letting go has taught me another very valuable lesson......FORGIVENESS. I have learned that not forgiving someone completely is only going to cause damage to YOU later on down the line...not the person that needs to be forgiven. I guess Madea was right when she said forgiveness is not for them but for you. I thought forgiving someone was saying i forgive you but still holding on to what the issue was at hand. You can never get pass anything if you dont just let it go...because eventually its going to be kept bottled up inside and come up in future arguments or disputes. I just hope in so many ways people can actually forgive me the way i am learning to forgive others. Holding something against someone is not healthy it only causes you worry and stress.... and stress is never good.........well i dont think.
How am i feeling? I am feeling very refreshed right now. I finally feel like my life is actually making changes. For so long I have been wanting to do a lot of things but i have always contradicted myself and my actions. Now, I am starting to take action and it feels real good. Not all of the decisions that i have made been easy and some of them I still question but as of now I just have to have faith. I am going to have faith that i will not let myslef down. I have depended on so many people in a lot of ways only finding disappointed. So now not saying that i do not have a few good friends to depend on.....but now i only put faith in myslef and God.... everybody else has to fall back for a moment.......sorry.