It is 8:10 am and I have finally made it home. I am always tired at work but then aas soon as I get off I get a boost of energy from somewhere. So I decided to take a hot bubble bath to relax me before I go to sleep. Then I thought of rev run when he use to always end his show in the bathtub with words of wisdom. Well I have words of wisdom for myself. While I was at work I was listening to keisha cole 1st album tryna stay awake. The more focused I was on each song and what she was singing about I could relate to just about all of them. Then right there it hit me. You cannot keep holding on to something that does not want to be held on to. Also stop trying to figure out what it is you can change or do better when you have done all you can. Writing blogs is for me to help myself say what I need to hear to myself instead of what I want to hear.
I have realized that the man I have been chasing has just been a chase. At work today I was thinking real hard and analyzing my faults and his. Regardless of whose fault it is or was still leaves no excuse to tolerate the foolishness I have. Not saying that I am perfect....but I see that I found myself compromising me and what I believe a lot of times. I realized that I have been holding on and pondering on the "what if" factor when simply as ms. Keisha cole herself said I should ve let go. When I look at every aspect of our relationship there was lack of communication, trust, and compromise. I will blog about this particular relationship in detail later but I just wanted to share my lesson that I learned today.